Who am I?

I thought so

2008-06-11T21:24:00.002+08:00

I thought I left this place behind me when I went to Japan.
But I decided it the new place is not the right place to voice my frustrations.
And once again, I return.

So much has happened. Not that I did not see it coming. But I wanted to believe it was not true. Murphy`s Law perhaps?
So many things happened, be it from me or from those around me. So much so, I have lost faith, respect, hope and love.

I want to voice my saddness, anger, pain...
I want to find somewhere I can just lie down and let my mind quieten down.
But I have lost the what little trust I have left. Turning the pain, tears and all into solitude. I am drifting further away from people.

I become so numbed. Sometimes I wonder is it better to be the loser who just runs away. I really dont`t want to be here anymore.

What do you want me to do? Tell me WHAT!
I really thought I have harderned my heart and mind. But this have brought it to a new level; perhaps I am as good as dead.......

It is all a facade.
Who am I?

I am who I want you to think I am...

Foresee the end is near

2007-11-04T09:56:00.001+08:00

that is that

It is probably too tough

2007-10-13T16:31:00.000+08:00

It probably is

The final goodbye

2007-09-15T17:36:00.000+08:00

Will be off to Japan for a few years for work. I guess it is time to start anew. Will try to update my life from here

Mean time....take care everyone

Goodbye

Don't understand

2007-09-12T03:08:00.000+08:00

Why is it women's head so messed up?

say A, do B;
say don't do C and then they happily do C themselves.

Clueless

Those famous last words...

2007-09-07T04:04:00.000+08:00

I sms a few of my friends just to let them know my confirmed flight date in case they did not notice my nick on msn.

"....If I was an ass, I apologise...."

Let us look at the replies I have from the highest amout to the least (Paraphrased):

You ok? Drunk ah? Why you say until so sad.
You are an ass, that is why you are my friend
Yeah I know you are an ass
No lah, u are not an ass lah.
When are we meeting up?
I cannot decide if you are an ass

It is pretty safe to say...I am an ass

Latest Acquisition

2007-09-03T01:51:00.000+08:00

Along with expenditures and others...boy have I blew my bank account

3 Little Princesses

2007-09-03T01:43:00.001+08:00

In order of age....

Anastasia
Danesia
Alysia

Above are the 3 precious babies in my life

I WANT

2007-09-03T00:02:00.000+08:00

I want this jacket in Black!!!!

You'll be safe here

2007-08-31T03:11:00.000+08:00

Nobody knows
Just why we're here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine

And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall I be

Chorus:

Close your eyes
Dry your tears
'Coz when nothing seems clear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You'll be safe here

Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong

And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free.
Pray and believe

Chorus:

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything's unclear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You'll be safe here

When no one understands
I'll believe
You'll be safe,
You'll be safe
You'll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You'll be safe here

Tabula

2007-08-29T01:13:00.000+08:00

Recently I found a gem at China one; a pub in Clark Quay. With the urging of a friend that there is an awesome band, we went there to check it out. It did not start well when they refuse to give up seats unless we open a bottle of Jack Daniels. What a load of bullshit, we were going to get a bottle of Black Label and they still denied us seats. But as usual, my friend manage to charm her way into getting us a seat.

The band; Tabula started to play and boy was they good. They played covers and the lead has a voice which sounds rough but good. You listen to Nickelback, Lifehouse etc...you will like them.

It was a great night of catching up and music. Will definately be back for more!

Morten's Steak

2007-08-29T01:01:00.000+08:00

Mention steak to any fan and most likely they will say Morten's Steak. Recently I decided to give it a try after padding my bank account with extra cash (Let's just say you need lots of padding). The place was pretty dim and we had to take a seat at the bar for our seats (even after reservations). But I did not have to wait long before I was ushered to my seat. The service was really good, they really make you feel good that you are going to spend a bomb.

A huge onion bread was placed infront of me. The smell really made me hungry. Upon taking the first bite, I was blown away. It has been some time since I have eaten a bread of such taste and texture. The waiter had to warn me to stop as the mains were the steak afterall. The waiter will come with a tray to display the different cuts of beef and sides they were serving. You decide the cut you want and order sides as it does not come with it. (Please share, the beef steak is HUGE)

We ordered Wild Mushroom and sliced potatoes. There were done perfectly, so good that I can come here just for the sides. The beef was really big and thick; with blood oozing with every cut I made. If was done beautifully, the beef melts with a slight tinge of the roasting. Once you tasted this, you really dont know how to go back to other beef. (I still like Angus at Takashimaya, but it is a whole different experience)

Dessert was the chocolate lava cake with vanilla ice cream. A dessert which you cannot go wrong with. Need I even describe the heavenly experience everytime one tries it.

Enough said, just go try!

"Me" Time

2007-08-24T16:02:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time since I had some along time to recharge. Just some time to bum, chill and basically laze.

So many heartbroken men

2007-08-19T22:36:00.000+08:00

Was out meeting my friends from NS and realised we were all heartbroken men. I have my own experiences and as I listen to some of their stories, I realise we are all so ruled by our heart.

Even the strongest love will leave once in a while; even in a serious and deep relationship. Even all the promises made will not mean a thing; afterall they are just words. Sometimes we will fall on the wrong side. Sometimes we are just too scared.

It's that effort to be there for the other even when they are not there. Believing that what you have will some way find the love that was once. Can you be humbled and acknowledge that you are wrong? Being truthful about what is going on deep inside you.

But sometimes when all is said and done, one must know when it is time to come back to reality. Have the courage to move on and not look back. Sometimes it is ok to be selfish, just for yourself since there is nothing left. Sometimes it is alright to make yourself happy and not make the everyone's problem your own. Such is a burden too big for a human.

AWESOME AWESOME GAME...

2007-08-19T22:23:00.000+08:00

Click here

This guy has amazing vision and perspective. Even if you are not a gamer, just watch the last 1-2 mins and listen to what he has to say.

2007-08-12T11:03:00.000+08:00

The drink list please....

Tennis no more

2007-08-11T14:49:00.000+08:00

テニスをでかなくなります (I used to be able to play tennis)

A really bad case of Golfer's elbow has prevented me from any more tennis. Even if I want to, no more hard hitting tennis. Bad backhand habits has finally caught up with me. Even after resting for so many months, I still feel a slight pain when I do certain actions (Eg. when I gel my hair).

I really missed the game. I hope it recovers soon.

Cute Dog

2007-08-11T13:56:00.001+08:00

I hate dogs cause they like to lick me. But this one very cute and lets just say I cannot afford to get on her bad books.

Snail porn

2007-08-11T13:48:00.000+08:00

Was walking when I caught sight of to snails getting some action I think. See the white thing in the first photo, I think thats the dart like thing. Interestingly, they are hermaphrodites, individuals contain both male and female sex organs, they do not self-fertilize.

So "erotic"....

Here is a link to learn more.

Pump it up

2007-08-11T13:41:00.001+08:00

I went to the Pump Room for dinner and drinks. Thought the lighting made this photo really nice. Food was not too bad, beers were interesting. Overall nice place to chill. Happy hour prices are pretty good too.

Just spending some time with her, it could be at some remote island for all I care.

NCC (LAND) Silent Mobilisation

2007-08-11T13:28:00.000+08:00

Before I leave, I decided to meet up with some really old secondary school friends from eca. But I have only been contact with a few of them. So I decided to ask them to spread the word for a silent mobilisation at Timbre.

It was really good to catch up with them. It has been so long since I met up with them. As always, all of us changed. Fatter, smater, longer hair etc. Did not get as many people as I thought, well, at least I knew some of them was still contactable but could not make it. I guess it really takes someone to push for a meeting to happen, it just happens that I am leaving soon.

Here are some friends I have spent really tough times with. Some activities we did were even worst than army. I hope to see them after I come back the next time...maybe with kids too. heh!

Danesia

2007-08-11T13:21:00.000+08:00

Look at her poor nose....she wacked herself with a chair.

She always pout at people to get her way. Who can resists her.

1 year old and counting. I really hope she can call me uncle before I fly. Hahahah!

Japanese Language

2007-08-10T01:57:00.000+08:00

A really good friend - Miss V, used to study the Japanese Language. Recently she put the words "あいしてる” (I think is means Loving). So I asked her, "だれがあいしますか” (Who do you love). And because she has not really touched the language for a long time, she was not quite sure what I was asking. She replied trying to tell me that Japanese language is difficult - "にほんごわへんたいです”

On reading her last sentence in Japanese I was stumped *Jaws dropped*. I took a second look and tried to think of all the different grammer structure to decipher the meaning, but alas I could not. I can only understand it in English as "Japansese language is weird" The funny thing is へんたい is usually used to mean weird with sexual nuance. Imagine my shock...almost fell off the chair laughing. Such a mistake comes once in a life time (though I happen to know a person who commits such boo boo frequently.)

But hey, she did not touch the language for some time already. From now, she is Miss Hentai. hahaha!

Was it the right choice

2007-08-10T01:01:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wonder was if it the right decision, especially for her.

Was my decision a fair one?

Happy Birthday 2nd Princess

2007-08-06T21:53:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to my 2nd niece - Danesia.

You are definately acting like a princess.

Uncle again....x3

2007-07-31T23:06:00.000+08:00

I am once again an uncle to a baby girl. Welcome to the world Alicia (or is it spelled Alisia)

Following family tradition...she has a head full of hair. Pictures will be up when I get my hands on it

Timbre

2007-07-30T22:03:00.000+08:00

It is always good to meet up with old friends from hall. Think abt the time we eat charmee and play basketball etc.

The photo does not really show it, but I was in pink, shorty was in pink/purple strips and so were the backrow two girls. Someone was the odd one out.

Harry Potter

2007-07-27T22:23:00.000+08:00

Finally....

Will You

2007-07-26T20:43:00.000+08:00

Will you...
give me a promise; a promise of the future.
wish me the best; even after knowing what lies ahead.
be with me when I am not here.
look forward for what is ahead.
keep the hopes and dreams alive.

Easily said; with or without thought.
It can mean so much and yet so little; both at the same time.

Will you

If not
then what will you...

Heads up

2007-07-22T21:27:00.000+08:00

I will be leaving Singapore for work earliest at the end August or early Sept. If there is delay in my visa, then I will leave later.

What is happening

2007-07-22T21:22:00.000+08:00

I stepped into Isetan and was just walking around to kill some time before my friends turn up. Next thing I know, I was walking away with a shirt and pants and was thinking if I should get the bag, another shirt and some other stuff.

Is it the additional income? (But I am not getting a lot)
Is it because of the sale? (Oh no, so aunty thinking)

Where is the logical me? The one who don't buy on impluse. Where is the Ansley who tries to save his hard earn money to spurge on trips? Oh man, I really burned my bank account this month.

Why you should be a geek

2007-07-14T13:06:00.001+08:00

Tan lines are not cool....

Very Nice Youtube Clip

2007-07-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

One of the many Japanese Festivals

2007-07-12T21:53:00.000+08:00

I wonder....

No more Shitty days

2007-07-08T10:29:00.000+08:00

I always thought I have the stomach for anything; a digestive system to match the Man of Steel. Finally I realised even an iron stomach can be broken down, just like when u put Superman with Kryptonite, Straight Man with Kate Beckinsale and Women with Johnny Depp. (Fine, the last two is debatable)

I caught diarrhea after a bout of fever (how 'lucky'), innocent little illness which hits once in a blue moon to anyone. It turned out to be two weeks of toilet running for me. I never knew how cramps felt like in your body till then. If that is what some women have to go through every month, they have freaking every right to be moody. It is like someone literally putting a hand inside my guts and twisting them and just for fun, the hand squeezes my intestines. Just imagine running to the toilet every hour when u are sleeping and having to sleep in some weird contorted shape to ease the pain. I am not kidding when I say that what goes in comes out in 15mins. What came out from the crap hole is the same form as what comes out from the pee hole - waste water. It really drained the life out of me.

Never had a diarrhea lasted more than 2 days in my life. I was pretty worried when the doctor suspect some form of viral infection. I still can't traced back what I ate that might be the cause. I had soft food as much as I can, not that it mattered; the food always comes out. I guess sometimes even Superman needs a break. I am only human.

And this morning when I took a dump, never was I happier to feel solids coming out from me. YEAH, No more Shitty days...literally. Crappy days are over. I am still a little wary, but damn I am happy.

Drained

2007-07-05T19:18:00.000+08:00

The intenstine infection has taken a huge toil on me. So bloody tired just to be awake. Feeling really sucky at the moment. Argh

Maybe I need alcohol. The only thing I can think that is different is my diet, I did not get my drinks last week... Hmmm...

Not feeling well

2007-07-03T19:59:00.000+08:00

Bad Kharma?

I have not been feeling well for the past few days. First it was a sudden fever, then a really bad case of diarrhea.

Sigh

34th Batch Officer Cadet Video

2007-06-29T02:08:00.000+08:00

Toys

2007-06-29T01:26:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time since I last seen gadgets. I try not too keep myself intouch as I will be very tempted to spend my last cent on them. I have finally decided to make a trip to Simlim to get a external harddrive.

The damage:

I got myself a 3.5inch 500gig harddisk. Woohoo....no more storage problem. Bring on the photos, music, animes and shows.

Got a wireless mouse. It's my first wireless laser mouse and boy I love the feeling. Look - No wires. But alas, I don't really like the scroll feel. I like those with the hinge feel. I will probably get use to it.

Ho ho ho, I got a webcam too. I wonder what I can do with it

I saw the coolest mouse ever, but it cost $179. Click Here

Remember this?

2007-06-29T01:02:00.000+08:00

I played this online game few years back in NTU. It was really addictive and a good way to learn to draw properly. It really was a blast from the past when a friend ask me to play it again. I can still remember Ping introducing me to that game, and I had trouble spelling the word properly. Damn it.

Isketch

Try it!!!

Hot Fuzz

2007-06-23T23:32:00.000+08:00

I caught this show Hot Fuzz over in Sydney. I must say it rocks. Go catch it, I swear it is really worth it.

Note: Don't be late for the show, pay attention....

Sometimes it is not as easy as I thought it will be

2007-06-21T22:21:00.000+08:00

I wish I can change and turn back time, but I can't.
I hope I can believe again, but somehow it never feels the same again.
Perhaps the crash was too great.
I reckon because I know; I know and that is why it is so difficult.

I wonder, I wonder.

Relics

2007-06-20T20:18:00.000+08:00

I found this on sale. Brings back memories of JC. Best is yet to be.

I was clearing my room when I found some really old stuff. This was a children's day present from primary school.

And the table tennis bat was the first ever bat I owned in Primary 2.

Bye hall

2007-06-20T20:13:00.000+08:00

After 4 years, I am finally home for good. Going to miss the freedom I get in hall....

Funky bus

2007-06-20T20:10:00.000+08:00

Went on bus 54 sometime back and thought I was at a pub....

Trying again

2007-06-20T01:02:00.000+08:00

I am trying....again.

Good? Bad?

I want a digicam

2007-06-20T00:50:00.000+08:00

Sydney really brought back my interest in photography. I want a digital camera. I want something small so I can carry around, but the geek in me wants to have at least some manual control over the aperture settings. And afterall I am a guy, I wish to have nice zooming distance and wide angle. I was and don't think I have an eye for nice pictures, so I guess I will settle for a consumer digicam. And obviously, the price must be right.

Canon? Panasonic? Ricoh? Any suggestions?

So tired

2007-06-14T19:17:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired....I need a holiday

I know

2007-06-14T19:13:00.000+08:00

I learnt that I can replace the lack of intelligence with hardwork

I learnt that I can alieanate the world if I have to

I forgotten what is it like to make friends

I learnt that I really love the game of tennis

I learnt that I have lost my will power

I forgotten what is it like to talk

I learnt that I too sometimes can cry

I learnt that I too will feel pain

I forgotten what is it like to believe

I learnt to let go

I learnt to forget

I forgotten what is it like to trust

I learnt how important family and friends are

I learnt what I don't know about myself

I forgotten what is it like to let go

Finally...

2007-06-08T23:15:00.000+08:00

At long last, I am a graduate. 4 years in uni is a long time and I'm so glad I made it through and still sane. Got better results then expected for last sem and finally got a honours that I did not expect too.

Finally....can put that part of my life aside.

Misc. Travel Pics

2007-06-07T22:33:00.001+08:00

Wedding

2007-06-07T20:37:00.000+08:00

Congratulations to Adrain and Pamela. I'm really happy my cousin is getting married and really glad to see all turned out well for him.

Here is a shot of me before the dinner

Day 13: Home

2007-06-07T20:13:00.000+08:00

I woke up in the morning and went to Sydney Airport using the Bus. The bus ride had me thinking how I wish I studied overseas; I could have seen and done so much more. Oh well, no use dreaming when the time has already passed. Sydney was really fun and I indeed enjoyed my time here. The trip could never have been possble with Adam aka Guide and Michael aka dive buddy (who forgot how to setup his equipment). A big thank you to both of them and also Kok for coming down for lunch. Glad to say I met some really cool people there too.

I ate my breakfast at the airport as I had some time to kill. Had Jester's pie and a vegemite cheese stick. Both of which were delicious. Packed big boxes of Krispy Kreme to bring back to Spore as gifts. The plane ride was great, I caught tons of shows and had plenty to eat and drink. SIA served me lunch and an early dinner. I was kind of pampered on the plane.

The plane arrived at 5.30pm, I on my hp and immediately got a call from my mum asking me to go for dinner at my granny's place as my relatives from Malaysia had arrived. I trudged over with all my language and was perspiring like mad. I have not sweat for the last 2 wks in Australia and the weather in Spore is not really helping.

Day 0 in Spore.....and there is only 1 more box of donuts left

Day 12: Final sights

2007-05-30T23:27:00.000+08:00

There is nothing more I think I can see without a car in sydney. I decided to have a sandwich and coffee at the Botanical Park. Sitting on the nice soft grass, I really enjoyed the cool weather. Went to find the Macqurie Spot where I can get a picture of the Habour Bridge and Opera House together. In times like this, I really regret not having a digital camera.

I found the Andrew Swimming Pool right smack in the middle of nowhere beside a park. How cool is that?! Decided to take a closer look at St. Mary's again and went to the Art gallery museum for a longer walk. I even joined the tour there which really made me understand more of the paintings.

I decided to walk the Habour Bridge but did not finish it as the view was not great from there. They had huge fences on both sides, thus blocking any chances of a good snapshot of the skyline. I spent the next 45mins at a german pub drinking mango beer. Interesting concept, great tasting and easy to drink. The night took a turn, the temperature dropped drastically. I had pretty decent chinese food and went to a sports pub to meet some friends.

This is probably my last sightseeing day. Tomorrow will probably laze and pack my bags. Sigh, going to miss this place and I am so broke.

Day 11: Fishy fishy

2007-05-29T22:13:00.000+08:00

I woke up and caught a korean comedy - The 3 Master Kims. Pretty standard korean comedy, very slapstick, random and abrupt. We went off to the Sydney Fish Market after that. Stepping into the place and the overwhelming fishy smell hits you. I did not see much fish markets, in fact I saw more shops selling food instead. There were plenty of people and this was an afternoon in a weekday. I guess life in Sydney is pretty good eh.

We bought a seafood platter for 2 and bought unagi, 500g of sashimi and 2 bottles of white wine to go along. As usual, the food was more then enough. We just sat there eat, chat and drink. The weather was great, sunny but the cool weather meant that we did not perspire when eating outdoors.

The evening was spent drinking Port (wine in a box) and watching shows. We had Korean instant noodles and boy was it spicy. I am not kidding, it really burns. I bought some back to shock people. Tasted this nice Korean soda too....I think I may bring some back.

Last few days in Sydney and I pretty much seen everything. Next few days will be taken at a leisure pace. Why does the holidays end so fast?

Day 10: Dive

2007-05-28T21:28:00.000+08:00

I booked 2 boat dives with my friend and was pretty psyched about it since I got the confirmation. I read up about the dive sites and found out that they were really good. We drove down to Rosebay only to find out the skipper of the boat was sick, as such there will be no boat dive. They compensated with 2 shore dives free and I manage to get a refund for the boat dive, could not reschedule as I will be leaving on Friday.

Drove down to Manly and did 2 shore dives at Shelly Bay. The dive master mentioned "There are blue ring octopus, don't go touching them as they are very venomous". I think I heard that they can kill people. *Faint*. The deepest was 7m and the surge was pretty strong. It sucks having to walk down to the beach and back up after the dive (Think I am too pampered by the Live on Board). Marine life is very different from South East Asia diving. I got to see many different fishes which I have never seen before. Saw a HUGE school of catfish and REALLY regretted not having a camera. Saw 2 squids about 1.5m, that was damn awesome. Manage to octopus, large gorupers, cowfish, pipefish and sharks from afar. I also manage to see an Angel shark, it really look more like a sting ray. Did not find a Sea dragon or Webblegong though *Sigh*. The dives were great as I have not seen such marine life, but the coral life is bad (maybe cause it is the shore) and the water was 20 deg; I was really freezing even under a full 5mm suit. The group had 4 other divers and they all had bad bouyancy and kept kicking up the sand and silt which created bad visibility. They are like to cluster together and kept barging in to see things. It was really a culture shock for me. One more thing, they dive really fast; which means no time to find the small critters.

Since I drove 2 other divers to Manly and back, they treated me lunch. We had a really good beef burger near the dive shop. I went back to my friend's place to rest and went to the Art museum. I was floored by this place and really wished I could have more time. Will probably visit this place one more time before I leave. Had pasta for dinner and the serving was HUGE.

Good and bad day I guess....no boat dive but at least I got free shore dives and lunch....

Day 9: Blue Mountains

2007-05-28T21:10:00.000+08:00

Started off a little late today because of previous night's drinking session. We managed to arrive at the first town and grabbed a nice pie for breakfast. But the fillings were so creamy that the process became really messy. Manage to grab some candies for my nieces from a specialised candy shop.

The drive around the Blue Mountain region was not as scenic as Southern Highlands. The view from Echo Point was really massive and I even got to see 'The 3 Sisters'.

We decided to go check out Jenolan Caves and the journey took us through a long, windy and dangerous road. Luck was on our side as we manage to secure the last 2 tickets for the 'River' tour (2nd choice); the most strenuous walk. Lunch was an awesome meal of Beef burger and lagsania. The food was pretty good and the surrounding was really quaint.

I went for a cave tour in Perth before and was not excepting much. The tour had tons of climbing up and down steep ladders and walking. As it went on, I was floored by the caves and beautiful clear waters. This place beats the one on Perth by 10 times at least. The tour really got me feeling like I was an explorer and we were so wowed by it that we rushed out to get a second tour. This time we got our 1st choice (Temple of Baal) and there was not much walking, but it was visually stunning. The stories relating to the formations made the tour so much more real. All of us just stand there in awe.

We left Jenolan Caves at 5pm, which also means twightlight has descended. The drive back was challenging, scary and long. Along the way back, I was mooned (someone showing off his bare butt) by a drunk teenager. That was really interesting. I drove down to another friend's place to stay as the next day we were going out - lucky never get lost. Ate a really tasty kahbab at Darlinghurst street (Just like Geylang) and had a look at the 'action' going on the streets. Did not step into the strip clubs though. (A)

Day 8: Southern Highlands

2007-05-26T19:19:00.000+08:00

Left at 7am and arrived at Mittagong for breakfast. Can't remember the cafe's name, but I had pancakes and banana and it ROCKS! The food was really good; what a way to start of the day. Visited Centennial Winery and found and interesting red wine with a slight bubble gum taste. Went to SHW Winery and got a nice bottle of red with a tinge of chocolate. Wished I had more time to try, but there was other things to see.

The drive was slightly more than an hour and the scenary was AMAZING. The hills and valleys were everywhere, autum leaves and beautiful trees. Went to walk around Bowral town and had a delicious passion fruit ice cream on the way to Baundanoon. Lunch was a steak sandwich in a little town. Nothing fantastic. Found a buddhist temple in the forrest, how interesting. Drive through the scenic Kagaroo Valley roads and found a shop along the road with the best tasting pie and kickass malt milkshake. The pie had fluffly and crispy pastry with really nice fillings.

We went to Canbewarra Lookout and I was floored by the view. This had to be the BEST view I seen so far. I can see the lands stretching to the sea and to the horizon. Breathtaking is an understatement. Drove up to Kiama and checkd out the blow hole. Manage to walk right to the cliff facing the sea. The evening skys made the view even better.

Dinner was at Red Rooster on the way back. The meat was ok, the bread was nice and soft. Fries had chicken salt...that is how all chips should be made. Really good day today, wished I had more time so I can travel around more.

Day 7: Port Stephens

2007-05-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

We started off at about 7am today; first light was abt 6.30am. We manage to drive past the habour Bridge which was really and eye opener. Drove down to Gosford and had Macdonald breakfast. They have green apple pie over here which I was told that it was not good. We went off to visit Lakes and beaches along the way, the scenary was awesome. So beautiful and tranquil, really love it here.

Arrived at Port Stephens after a long drive and went for lunch at subway. We then went to check out the Dolphin and whale watching tour. Too bad did not get to see any whales, was really into seeing one. Apparently the season only start mid June. I did however get to see lots of dolphins. There were like 40 of them swimming and playing with our boat. I was so tempted to jump down and play with them. Really eye opening experience which burnt a hole in my pocket. Tried a Red Ned Kangaroo meat pie, I must say it was pretty tasty. Worth trying it again.

The drive back started with a stop off a a peak. The view was magnificant, looking down at the vast lands and lakes. Dinner was at Stratfield at a Chinese/Korean place. We had bean paste noodle and sweet and sour beef. Apparently the koreans always eat these and it has a strong influence from the Chinese food.

People must be wondering why I keep eating korean food and watching korean movies over here...cause my friend's girlfriend is korean. Which also means he knows what are the good food and his taste in shows are about the same as mine, so he introduced me to korean art films.

Ended of the day with 'Golden Girls'. anyone remember the 4 old ladies comedy? I never watched it before cause I thought old people don't really interest me. My gosh, please do catch it. The dialogue is so witty, it makes me wonder how the shows can degrade to such level we have now.

ps* I found the beer I wanted: 'Little Creatures' from Fremantle, Perth

Day 6: On my own

2007-05-24T21:58:00.000+08:00

I had the day to myself, which meant I can do things my guide does not really like. I trod down to Circular Quay and and a nice breakfast of sandwich and coffee. Sat there and just watch the people and life in Sydney go pass. Checked out the Contemporary Arts Gallary and Rocks Museum. Walked around that area and went down to St. Mary's Church. The church looks great from the outside, and stepping inside just transported me to Europe. the architecture was impressive. Very nice place to visit. I walked Hyde's park and really enjoyed the park.

Went to walk around the shopping centres around the city and checked out the building architecture. Really interesting to see the old and new mixing up in the same area. Managed to eat some Krispy Kreme which was nice, but I found my taste for really sweet stuff has somehow dropped. Ate lunch at 'Wraps' which was not great. Walked down George St and Pitt St and found Crumpler. They have some designs not available in singapore but were not very nice. Saw some unique colours but the price was a little steep.

Took a walk around Oxford street (Gay street) and checked out the Adult shop scene. Nothing much, but apparently the area becomes more alive at night. I checked out Darlinghurst which had a different feel, my friend told me it gets really happening at night. It is sort of the Geylang of Sydney.

Got the rental car and had a hotdog at the famous Harry's de cafe, really nice snack. We then drove down to check out Leichardt (Little Italy). There is this forum like place which looks like Robertson Quay. When you are in Italy, do what the italians do; we ate pizza and pasta. The seafood pizza was fantastic, pasta was disappointing though.

Took a short drive to La Peruse. I thought it was a suburd, but apparently it was just a place to see the sea. By then it was already night, so did not get to see much. Hope can drop by one of the days.

Day 5

2007-05-24T21:44:00.000+08:00

Started the day with breakfast at the nearby Malay store. It is the only one open early in the morning. Tried the mee rubus and my fren tried the nasi lemak, sad to say that both of it sucks. But I must admit the teh tarik was good. Watched 'Black Adder' while waiting for another friend to pick us up. The show was great, really witty.

Met up with Kok for lunch. We bought a viet chicken sandwich which tasted really really good. The bread was crispy on the outside, soft on the inside. We ate at a park for lunch which was what people always do over here. I tried Solo and that drink kicks ass.

We went back to chill and play xbox 360 before heading to 'Sam's Thai' for dinner. Let me say that this place serve really delicious food. I had pepper chicken with tofu and egg. Apparently, the people who tired it and went back to singapore still misses the food there. I can really see why; cause the food is amazing.

I went to Fox Studios cause my friends were taking part in a xbox 360 Forza 2 competition. I tried but sucked at it; who cares when I got some freebies. The Quater finals till finals were held in the cinema. It was mindblowing to game on such a big screen.

One last thing, today was very cold....maybe finally winter is coming to Sydney

Day 4

2007-05-22T23:52:00.000+08:00

Went off to Watsons Bay and checked out the gay nudist beach. Caught some people sunbathing but did not join them. The view was awesome at the Gap. Lunch was Fish and chips at Doyles. The seafood platter was hugh, I really hope that was not intended for one person. The weather was very chilly today with very strong winds. Even the seagulls were pushed back when they try to set off. And the damn sea gulls ate my chips. The grass is always greener on the other side. That is so true here, the grass here is softer and nicer to sit on. Any small patch of grass, there will be people sitting around.

Manage to take the ferry to Manly. I love that place, it has the same feel as Fremantle in Perth. Very laid back place to go. I chomped on Jester pie which was delicious. The Manly beach was huge, very long. Walked around the place and found a huge Quicksilver shop.

Dinner was at Pancakes on Rocks. Food was great but I was too full for pancake desserts after that. Somehow that defeats the purpose....damn! Will try to make a trip there some other day.

The day ended by chilling out over a bottle of cider.

Day 3: Back to the 70s - Hippie night

2007-05-22T08:47:00.000+08:00

Woke up a little later and laze about, just enjoying the cool morning and catching up on stuff online. We decided to give our legs some rest and take it easy for the day. I got a little hungry and decided it was Dominos for lunch! You don't get such good pizzas anymore. Plus you can order it online.

Decided to take a longer walk ard Uni of NSW as my friend was having a short class. Sat on the grass and played a little rugby with some guys. Checked out the canteen which basically is like a hipper food court. They have an area on campus with arcade, pool tables, projector screen screening soccer matches and a chill off vibe to top it all off. Best part is they sell alcohol in the afternoon and you see everyone drinking at 3pm. That's what uni should be!

Tried the bubble tea of Sydney - Easy Way. It is a chain that can be found in many places. It was actually pretty good. Walked around the neighbourhood to check out the daily life in Kingsford.

The entire night was spent relaxing over music, movies, Indo mee, chips and etc. Heard and seen some groovy stuff which made me changed my perspective in all aspect of life. To sum it up, the feel was exactly like a hippie night.

Hello from Sydney

2007-05-21T01:10:00.000+08:00

Plane ride over here was not so good. The breakfast was crap; though the wine/beer/Chocolate and sandwich made it bearable. I was surrounded by kids/babies. Lucky I had inflight entertainment. SIA had like 70 over shows to watch.

Weather in Sydney is not as cold as I expected. It is really comfortable to walk. Infact I probably walked 20km in 2 days here. The best part of it all - I don't perspire from the 3 hour walks over here as compared to taking a 5min walk in Singapore. Really have to thank Adam and Mike for showing me ard.

Day 1:
I walked from Coogee beach all the way to Bondi beach and then had a sinful fried mars bar.

Syd has Coke Zero, it taste better than coke light but has the same amount of calories as coke light. How awesome is that, Spore should really bring that in. Dinner was at BBQ City (Korean). Really good food and alcohol. The night was passed by more drinks with a great view of the Habour bridge and Opera house with fireworks. I had a little more alcohol than I shoud; anything after the fireworks was a blur. Glad I did not find myself sleeping naked beside a guy or something like that.

Day 2:
I swear off all vices - no more alcohol etc. Had a hearty breakfast of murtabark and teh tahrik. I walked Circular Quay and visited Habour Bridge and the Opera house. Tried Gelatissimo which was delicious. Went to The Rocks - love the whole vibe and the market there. Lunch was a really hearty vietnam beef noodles. Walked around the Paddy's market which is like pasar malam, did not really like it. Checked out Darling Habour after that. Its a really nice place to chill. Syd Aquarium was really good, quite big in my opinion. Went to check out the Wildlife enclosure too which not too bad. Ate 'turkish on king' for dinner at New Town. The food was great and their chips have chicken salt which makes it even better. Will love to walk ard New Town in the morning one day, really different feel to other place - very hippie feel.

Went back to catch 2 korean movies. I have never been a fan of korean shows. I just stereotype them as melodrama and slapstick comedy. But after the first show - 'Old Boy'; I was blown away. The show was very good, left me reeling in shock and speechless. It really changed my perspective of Korean movies. 2nd show was 'sex is zero', weird combination of slapstick comedy, sex and melodrama. Pretty good with some odd bits here and there.

A little Update

2007-05-18T12:17:00.000+08:00

The sea and the sky

Kuantan Wreck and the off shore sites of Tioman rocks. Lovely dive, finally starting to be able to find the small and elusive critters. I want to see more! The wreck was awesome, really glad to see healthy marine and coral life around. I want to dive more more more!!!!!

Packing and gearing for my trip to Sydney! Have fun people

ps* I am very broke!

See ya

2007-05-14T16:04:00.000+08:00

And so my Graduation trip starts. Rich people go dive at exotic locations like Sipadan, Similans etc. I don't have much cash, so I settle for Kuantan Wreck/Tioman.

I will be back late this week, then I will be resting in Singapore for a day before I head to Sydney for 2 weeks. Now now, stop saying I'm rich. I have to beg my friends to let me bunk in their place and somehow con my dad to let me use his flyermiles.

See you guys in June....

Post Exams

2007-05-06T18:47:00.000+08:00

Finally I am done with the exams; hopefully my last one for my degree. Been planning what I want to do for a long long time. Here is a short list which is not exhaustive:

~~Blade~~
Movies (Ongoing. I want to catch Transformers)
Drinks (Can't cross it out, still ongoing process)
Dive (Soon...I will be off to dive Kuantan Wreck and Tioman from 15th to 17th May)
Travel (Off to Sydney from 19th May to 1st June)
Walk around (Ongoing)
Sleep (Ongoing)
Game (Ongoing)
Catch EIC and Unexpected

Right now, I have one last lap...the FYP Presentation. After that, I am officially out of university. The past 4 years have literally zoomed past me.

I stepped into the arcade to have a look. Behold, the most interesting game I have seened since Legend of Zelda; Romanace of the 3 Kingdoms live strategy. The player users various cards with key character and fight a war using military strategy. Time to whip out the Art of War. This looks like somethin g SAF will want for their officers.

How good is the K800i

2007-05-06T18:43:00.000+08:00

So good, it is even an underwater camera.

Caught this Blenny hiding in a tank at Marina square, whipped out my camera to take a picture of it. Can't wait to go diving

I want a digital camera...who wants to sponsor?

Hidden till they have wings

2007-05-06T18:40:00.000+08:00

I spotted this two creature wrapped snuggly in leaves; waiting for the day they morph...

and fly away....

Invaded

2007-05-06T18:34:00.000+08:00

This green bugger sneakily came into my room even though the door opening was really small. I used to catch grasshoppers with my barehands in Primary school and seconday school. Apparently time makes one person balls shrink. I had to use a tissue to catch this particular one and I squirmed when I felt it struggling.

This is not the first living creature that has decided to share my habitat. Moths, Bees, Hornets, Lizard (I think it stays behind my woofer) ~~and other humans~~

After Exams, During Exams, Before Exams

2007-05-06T18:31:00.000+08:00

My drink.....

Hear no Evil

2007-05-06T18:25:00.000+08:00

It's OVER

2007-05-05T00:56:00.001+08:00

YEAH!!!! IT's FUCKING OVER!!!!! I'm done with exams...schools....

WOOO HOOOO

What is wrong with this advertisement?

2007-05-01T20:21:00.000+08:00

I was reading a blog when an advertisement caught my eye. On first glance it felth wrong, I had to slow down and read it one more time.....

Any idea what I am talking about?

"Help feed the world's hungry with one dick"

Haunted by the past

2007-04-28T17:42:00.000+08:00

Memories can be demons.

I fear to take that step.

That is some Pussy

2007-04-26T11:19:00.000+08:00

I meant the lead singer of Pussycat Dolls, Nicole Scherzinger. I always thought it was another manufactured band with some tunes and hot girls prancing around. Never knew she could really sing, only know her body is very taut.

For those too young to know, the composer (Yoshiki) is a brilliant fellow. He is the heart of the disbanded band, X-Japan (The soul is Hide) which created some great rock ballads like 'Crucify my Love', 'Endless Rain' and 'Forever Love'; just to name a few (Remember, Youtube is your best friend).

Anyway, I just thought this was a great song to share. Yoshiki has done it again, another ballad filled with so much emotions.

Demotivators

2007-04-22T22:08:00.000+08:00

The above is SO ME!!!!!!

This site is damn funny. Plenty more of demotivators....

Sniff sniff

2007-04-22T19:15:00.000+08:00

Phantom of the Opera was BRILLIANT. So good that I almost teared. The props, the stage, the costumes and the phantom mask were all beautifully done. And I was waiting for the chandellier to smash.

I almost did not manage to watch it this time round due to some circumstances which I shall not elaborate. But luck seems to be on my side when I heard my friend asking if I will like to take over her ticket as she was going overseas. Lucky I know the other person going to the show too. Great company, nice dinner and I got a ride back to hall in a SLK. Had so much fun playing with the GPS system (though weirdly enough, NTU cannot be found).

ahem....

2007-04-21T13:25:00.000+08:00

After about 1 week of no bunny, this is what I mean when u get bunnified. 10 digits score and it is after rolling over. damn the bunnies!

This score was old history long long time ago.

My friend ask me what is my strategy:
1) Forget those bells, fly the bunny to the doves!

Go try the Doggie game

In the midst of the exams

2007-04-20T02:07:00.000+08:00

I decided to take a break from the exams. Despite this semester being the most important (if I screw it up, it is one more sem), despite I have not started studying for the last 2 papers.

I got my uni friends to go to Wala Wala for some music. Dinner was at Spizza and as usual, the pizza was fantastic. The band playing was Shirlyn and The Unexpected. They rock as usual! Infact, the rendition of 'Enter the Sandman' was awesome.

Ahh...why can't all my exam timetable be like this.

More time to kill?

2007-04-20T02:04:00.000+08:00

Have a look at this link

Some games to kill time. Try the dog game....pretty challenging.

VT Shootings

2007-04-19T17:05:00.000+08:00

You had a hundred billion chances and ways to have avoided today. But you decided to spill my blood. You forced me into a corner and gave me only one option. The decision was yours. Now you have blood on your hands that will never wash off.

Your Mercedes wasn't enough, you brats. Your golden necklaces weren't enough, you snobs. Your trust funds wasn't enough. Your vodka and cognac wasn't enough. All your debaucheries weren't enough. Those weren't enough to fulfill your hedonistic needs. You had everything.

No one is going to pardon his act of shooting people down. But from the things he said, is it just me or no one can see that he suffered a lot? So much anger and hatred. I don't really think a loner can genereate so much hate on his own. Looks like racism and snotty brats were the cause. Don't blame the games, movies or games. Don't let the media blind your mind. Can someone maybe even see that the root of it is the way he was treated?

Maybe, just maybe it is time to change, time to see everyone on equal level.

I need to get one

2007-04-17T17:18:00.000+08:00

I swear this is one of the greatest invention of all time

Clocky

What is wrong with me

2007-04-10T20:46:00.000+08:00

I think the books are affecting my mind.

Excerpt from a msn conversation:
polarbear: save up for my wii
me: Wii....I also wan
polarbear: nex time jio u to my place to play la
polarbear: make sure u hold the sticks tightly
me: hard lah...I used to pple holding them for me!

Ps* Miss Google it understand?

Bounce Bunny Bounce

2007-04-10T10:03:00.000+08:00

I have no life....

Because of this Bunny - Try it, pretty fun with an awesome background music

ps* DAMN U JLORMI!

My Angel

2007-04-09T23:26:00.000+08:00

I almost teared when I saw a care package delievered to me. Wah, my angel is damn understanding. She even bought beer for me. For that, you are like the most gorgeous girl I know. *wink* Got more? hahaha

Melts in your mouth, not in your hand

2007-04-08T05:59:00.000+08:00

A really thoughtful friend sms me abut the elusive dark choc m&m (thanks for the heads up). If not for some stuff I had to do (more like meeting my friend for a round of Wii), I would have flown to NTUC.

*tears streaming* A kind heroine delivered the dark choc m&m to me directly. I must say I am disappointed. You only get a tinge of the bitterness at the end of the m&m. Its either tailored to the general public or the sugar coating is not doing justice to the dark chocolate. Who takes their time to savour m&m? You don't do such things....you just pop in and chew - like how cookie monster eats the cookies.

Anyway, a big thanks to the m&m heroine. It is truly appreciated. Maybe things are turning around. The past few days has been nothing but good for me (other than studies). Let's hope I can finally start studying.

Daddy's home

2007-04-07T15:12:00.000+08:00

Daddy's gone!

Oh well, it is my dad we are talking about.

Where to find

2007-04-06T18:44:00.000+08:00

I saw this in a magazine and I almost went ballistic. Infact, I was so excited I had to tell people abt it. I have to get my hands on it. I kept my eyes open for the past 2 days but can't seem to find them.

Where are u my little coloured bitter chocolate friends......

Happy Birthday pal

2007-04-02T03:47:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Gab...

Interesting

2007-04-01T17:53:00.000+08:00

I thought this is really interesting.....

Wireless Power

Lao Zha Bor

2007-03-31T18:00:00.000+08:00

If you caught Just Follow Law, then you know this lady who has a blog....

http://laozhabor.blogspot.com/

She's damn hip! My mum does not even know how to use the computer

Changes in 2 years

2007-03-29T11:38:00.000+08:00

Imagini

2007-03-29T01:41:00.002+08:00

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

They are famous

2007-03-27T22:08:00.000+08:00

My nieces......

Danesia on the left and Anastacia on the right.

Cute hor

Spartans! Prepare for glory!

2007-03-26T15:59:00.000+08:00

Now, as then, a beast approaches, patient and confident, savoring the meal to come. They came with beasts from the blackness. With claws and fangs they grabbed us. Except for me...

We Spartans have descended from Hercules himself. Taught never to retreat, never to surrender. Taught that death in the battlefield is the greatest glory he could achieve in his life. Spartans: the finest soldiers the world has ever known.

A new age has come; an age of freedom. And all will know that we gave our last breath to defend it.
Remember this day, men, for it will be yours for all time.
Ready your breakfast and eat hearty, for tonight we dine in Hell!

Immortals. We put their name to the test.
This is where we hold them! This is where we fight! This is where they die!
Give them nothing! But take from them everything!

Madness? This is SPARTA!!!
This will not be over quickly. You will not enjoy this.
Have you not noticed? We've been sharing our culture with you all morning.

So my king died, and my brothers died, barely a year ago. Long I pondered my king's cryptic talk of victory. But time has proven him wise, for from free greek to free greek the word was spread that bold Leonidas and his 300, so far from home, laid down their lives, not just for Sparta, but for all Greece and the promise this country holds. Now, here on this ragged patch of earth called Plataea, Persian hordes face obliteration! Just there the barbarians gather, sheer terror gripping tight their hearts with icy fingers, knowing full well the horrors they suffered at the swords and spears of 300. Yet they stare now across the plain at 10,000 Spartans commanding 30,000 free Greeks! Ho! The enemy outnumber us a paltry three to one! Good odds for any Greek. This day we rescue a world from mysticism and tyranny, and usher in a future brighter than anything we could imagine. Give thanks, men, to Leonidas and the brave 300! To victory!

Harooh!

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Last burst for my Exams.

On these shields, boys!

Booked

2007-03-26T04:53:00.000+08:00

I have decided to fly to Sydney for my graduation trip. Never been there before even though I have gone to Australia a few times. I tried to find one more person to follow me so I can drive down to Melbourne, but it seems like a difficult task; more like I was too lazy to really look around. The ticket is booked, 19th May till 1st June. So if anyone is around there at that time, let me know.

I'm so broke I have to fly on dad's remainding flyermiles, but still have to fork out $300 for the taxes. I'm crashing at 2 friends' place, so I can save some cash. I'm willing to sleep in the toilet, face the cats, meet with the crazy housemate etc.

I have not made any concrete plans where exactly to go, just some vague idea of driving around the outskirts. Hope I can go skiing. Since it is winter, I guess diving is out of the question.

Anyway, I'm asking for donations for my meals over at Sydney. It's called 'Feed Ansley Funds'
*looks at shorty* - The rich one
*looks with pleading eyes at Can* - The promoted one
*looks at Ping* - The working one
*looks at Han* - Stop buying shoes
*looks at Pam* - Time to pay back your Shifu
*looks at {insert name}* - Please please please

I'm so pumped!

Boston

2007-03-25T22:40:00.001+08:00

In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... you said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
You said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
You said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
You said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,

Boston... where no one knows my name... yeah
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Yeah Boston...
Where no one knows my name.

~Augustana~

The night

2007-03-25T03:42:00.000+08:00

That very day crushed my entrie defense in life.
I tried. I gave up when the truth hit me. Circumstances made me wonder if it was really worth it. I thought for a long time before I finally let it go.
Was it not more like nothing can be done.

I clouded myself for as long as I could with whatever I could get my hands on.
I psyched myself.
I replayed the very message every day.
I hardened my heart.

I am I once again.

The night and life have its way of creeping up onto you. Tonight I thought there was glimmer of hope. Or is the night playing tricks on the mind?

Is it too late? Even if not, will it work when my faith has wavered.

I don't want to hope anymore. What will be will be.
Anyway, a decision has been made which affects everything.

直到爱消失你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个
美好风景
只是她早已离去
直到你想通她早已经
不再对你留恋
最后的你
开始了一段挣扎

Weird

2007-03-24T17:25:00.000+08:00

I just woke up from a nap. In my half awaken state as I still struggling to wake myself out, I realise I was tearing. Slowly, I rememebered the sad dream I had in which I recongnise no characters. I felt the tears dripping onto my arm and I opened my eyes to see a small patch on my bed.

I wonder why I was crying. Does it reflect my current state of mind? Or like wet dreams, the body is actually trying to get rid of access materials that it building up?

Weird.